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03 July 2006 @ 09:23 pm
Begining of Summer...  
Back in late May, the day I had been waiting for, for over a year now finally came. I graduated from Schenectady County Community College. The day overall was suprisingly bittersweet. I said goodbye to good friends and alot of bad ones. As much as I will miss being a music major at SCCC, I am more excited about looking forward and moving on and pushing further ahead with my academic career. My family took me out to dinner and later that night I went over to Mer's to see her new puppy Lucy who was flown in that day, she was way too cute.

So after I was done with school I took a much neede break from SCCC. I had a gig at the Schenectady Composer's Forum. I had my orientation for Saint Rose and it was amazing. I have my schedule for next fall semester, my student ID and everything is basically all set for me to go. I even have a roomate! I will be living with Naomi in the fall. I really can't wait. She is such a good friend of mine and Im SO glad she and I have stayed friends over the past ten years or so. I truly love Saint Rose. It's freaking amazing. I know im going to enjoy it a million times more than Schenectady. Im really only going to miss a small, minute, handful of people from Schenectady. I hated it there. I did not fit in at all and all anyone ever did was make me feel like a piece of shit. I hated spending any time with most of them because everyone treats everyone like shit and talks about them behind their backs or theyre fairweather friends or theyre just hopped up on drugs all the time.
Good Riddance to bad rubbish I say.

I have been having the most amazing summer though. And it wouldnt be anything if it werent for my few friends from home. Samantha Kollar is my favorite. I have absolutely no idea what I would do with out that girl. Well I do, I would have gone absolutely insane.

A problem arose after being home for a while, and I quickly realized it was a problem that also happened back in high school. A group of friends of mine that I hung out with in high school, that I have continued to be friends with post high school...started really making me feel like dirt. Now in some cases I understand that they want to do their own thing sometime or have a girls night out or whatever...but all the time? It just got to the point where I realized I was too good to be treated like this and needed a break from them. It really hurts, but life goes on I suppose. Its funny because these people know absolutely nothing about me...and theyve known me the longest....its mainly because theyve never asked.

I have so much planned for the summer. I can't even explain in words how thrilled and excited I am. I'm going to TWO amazing concerts. Im going to see Ashlee Simpson & The Veronicas...and then....I'm going to Darien Lake to see none other than the god of everything herself, KELLY CLARKSON. Thats right. Sammy & I are going to see Kelly Clarkson with my brother Shane and my awesome Sisterinlaw Holly :-D I can not wait, only 6 days away! Im also going to see Adirondack Drums with my brother in Glens Falls. And Project Runway 3 premieres and Im going to watch it with my closest friends from SCCC, Mego and Lisa.

I have completely taken a break from dating. I havent even flirted or have gone on a date in way over two months. It honest-to-god- does not even bother me. Which freaks me out a bit and I wonder if I'm asexual. Hahhaha, but I think I just needed a break from that as well. I needed to get away from alot in Schenectady.

I'm pretty much ready to take on the world now. I've let go of all my inner demons and let go of all the horrible people in my life , past AND present. So much has changed. I have found out who my real friends are and I love them to death. So much has happened and so much has changed. I left the CLT finally. My winterguard was 3rd in the entire state. I had an amazing year at SCCC and I came along way in my performing and received the ultimate complements from Mrs. Heilman and Mr. Wery. I nailed my finals and jurys. I'm ready to take on whatever is thrown at me.
 
 
Current Location: G-Vegas
today I'm:: accomplishedaccomplished
in my ear: : Ashlee Simpson - Autobiography
 
 
 
lost_n_hurtlost_n_hurt on July 6th, 2006 05:06 am (UTC)
where is the ashlee/ veronicas concert??!!