Summer Update

Where to begin? Alot has happened this Summer so far. The last entry I entered into my LJ was right before I left for Maine. So far this summer I've completely severed ties to some people from school. I feel that the whole 'Sucking the poison out of my life' philosophy is what Im going to stick to. Also, others have told me that I shouldnt surround myself around people who really bring me down. Sounds easy doesnt it? Of course when youre the third party and you always give that advice to your friend, I know Ive given it before. But unfortunately, just severing ties doesnt make you feel better from what has been done. But it allows you time to heal and prevents any more 'damage' from happening in the future.

Unfortunately severing ties does nothing in somecases. As far as assholes from the CLT summer shows, Even if youre not there, apparently the past is good enough reason to give any excuse to rip you apart as a person. Supposedly one member of the current CLT summer show thought that I had given him a 'nasty look' at a recent party. This is completely insane since, you know, I have never met this person in my life. So instead of the person in question, just saying whatever and moving on, he decides to continue to ask everyone "what the hell is his problem." Now, this wouldnt be so bad if this person was younger, no, hes 28. All I have to say,is grow the fuck up buddy. Now, this STILL wouldnt be so bad, if this person's girlfriend, cant let go of the past and has to pathetically take this chance to completely tear me apart when Im not there or even involved with any of these people this summer what-so-ever. In all seriousness, how pathetic is it to just rip someone apart who is not even involved with this circle of people and has nothing to do with the summer show or anything else remotely close to it. Can we say, Grow the fuck up and get over your pathetic insignificant self? And to make matters even worse, supposedly, there was just "No Stopping Her". Which doesnt suprise me because when the same person would attack me verbally last year? None of my friends (except for Sam who was in the sam situation as I) would say or do anything to stand up for me. I do not understand why people feel too intimidated by this person or why they value her friendship that much. Grow some balls damn it. I would do the same for you if I heard someone completely ripping you apart. As far as the people who have nothing better to do in your life? Trash me all you want because, as far as you little PEONS go, your opinion can not bring me down. Dont hate me because you are pathetic classless white trash.

On a lighter note, I have ultimately decided to do a show this summer, but it only started in July and Ends Mid-August. Its not a 4 month marathon like the Glove or CLT. Well Glove is 3 months, CLT is 4. I will be playing the part of "Judah" ( NOT JUDAS) In "Joseph & The Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat" with the Second Star Players in Albany,NY. IM or E-mail me for any info. You better go! Its going to be a great show. And you can hear me talk like a true Fonda graduate. Rehearsals have been going well, theres only two things I dislike about it really. First, theres NO air conditioning. aaack!! Its like CLT when I did Charlie Brown but WAY WORSE. And Second, I hate being the new kid and not knowing anyone, but I have to get over that, especially since I will be transferring soon away from SCCC.

I have no clue where I want to transfer to, or what I want to do when I get there. Ugh. I hate how some people have it all figured out and its just a piece of cake. Die bitches. haha. Insanity. But I have so much on my mind other than that. I seem to be having shitty luck recently, with the above mentioned incident,I've come to the complete and total conclusion that I am going to remain single my ENTIRE LIFE. Someone I was possibly intereted in, decides to go back out with their scumbag ex. My car died this morning, AGAIN, I couldnt even make it back up the driveway,argh!! I got a lovely phone message from one of my supposed SCCC friends this morning bitching me out because I didnt hangout with her last night, Im sorry, but I live far away, and I have work at 7am and you dont get out of practic til 10pm. You do the math, and how DARE You call the next morning being a nasty bitcg, when I left like a thousand messages apologizing? Okay, groooooow up. So then I had to get to work somehow, I had to wait for Shane, who decides to get to work by 10, b/c you know, we have to check our e-mail and do nothing for an hour. aaaaaaaargh!!! So I walk. Not realizing halfway to the house we're painting, theres no sidwalk, so Im out on a huge ass road walking to this place. Its thundering. Im really surprised I didnt get struck by lightning to top off my morning.

So then, Im informed I have to pay 99 bucks to have my fingerprinting done for Winterguard & Colorguard. And Im seriously contemplating if I should or not, I mean, do any of those kids really appreciate what Ive done On my own freaking free time? I really really dont think so, which is disgusting, maybe not all of them, I just talking about the ones that are returning next year. They seriously dont care about everything I do and its INSANE, Some kids today can truly been ungreatful for what they have. I know I should so old saying this, its scary, its like, Mom stop throwing your voice in to my mouth!....wait...I dont know how that could happen, but if she could do that? oh man. But for real, Its true. WHO KNOWS.

And that is today's venting. Arent you glad youve stumbled across my insane pathetic life? hahahhaha Oh man, people most likely think Im insane from this. Whatever, if youre reading this , youre just as insane as I am for taking the time to have one of these or read these. SO THERE. ....okay well now that I have offended everyone in the free world, Im going to go practice piano, OH YEAH, Im taking Piano lessons from Mrs Lathers again in Glen,NY , I LOVE IT :) I missed piano so much. I also am playing in Mikey B's recital Aug. 18th I guess we're playing the Pulenc, yay! Gotta love 20th century Brass Trio music...or not. Whatever, come and listen, its good stuff. Alright I need to go loaf, I have the afternoon off from work, which I just found out about now. And Im going to clean and get shit done for once. Damn, I have alot to do. okay, Im rambling, later!